Tuesday, April 10, 2012

what have i got to lose?

Nothing. That's what. So here goes. That's me in my header. Taken just a few days ago. I've been diagnosed with an eating disorder. I'm an overeater. Yes, it's a real thing. I didn't think so at first either. But it is.

I want to lose weight. I really do.

I don't want to run a marathon. I really don't.

I'd like to walk up the stairs without being winded.

I want a quick fix. I know one does not exist.

By goal this week? To feel. To listen to my body when it tells me something. Am I full, am I hungry, did I eat that because I was sad? You know, listen. Remind myself what my body feels like when I've eaten something good. Stop buying treats in mass quantities when I know I will eat them all at once. Be mindful.

This is not my first day...not my first year....but it's my first day here and what have I got to lose? a pound or two?